"They put young married people in nursery because it's the best contraceptive in the church"

Ever heard that one before? :) Too bad they put me in sunbeams with the cutest kids on the planet! It's crazy, but my eight little sunbeams are the most reverent kids in the primary. Is it still the shock of moving up from nursery? I think so. It will probably wear off in a few months when I don't have much of a lap anymore to keep them sitting on. But they actually sit with arms folded *almost* all the way through sharing time (but the other kids are gone once they walk through the door...not a joke). They all try so hard to listen and sit still (except one girl who likes to hide in small places and eat chalk, but her mom is in the presidency and she's always running to and from her mom so it's difficult to know what to do with her). They LOVE singing time, and of course I cry every time I hear their little voices singing words to those beautiful songs and meaning it. You can just tell that they mean what they say. They wouldn't know to do otherwise. It's most touching when they sing about Jesus Christ, their Savior. I think I'm beginning to realize how deeply He loves children.

I love children too! Even though not all of my sunbeams are potty trained yet. Even though some weeks in class it's better to spend five seconds on a lesson and then have them play simon says. Even though they sometimes eat the paper they're supposed to be coloring. The simple truth is that they're wonderful. I learn so  much from them, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm also excited for my own baby. Even though I throw up. Even though when I'm not throwing up I feel like I want to throw up. Even though my emotions can take huge 180 degree turns in a picosecond. Even though I know my body is going to be changing and I may never get it to be quite like this again. I am humbled to be joining the ranks of those noble and good women called mothers. I do get nervous sometimes--unsure of exactly how to be a mom or if I'll even be a good one. But I have some really incredible examples to look to, so I know it's going to be all right. I already look up to my own dear mother and my mother-in-law, my incredible grandmas, my fantastic aunts and cousins (you all amaze me and I don't think I tell you enough) and the best darn sisters-in-law that anyone could ever have asked for.